Frustration...Motivation...It All Sets In.....

Frustration...

What else could I be frustrated about? My BORING ass job. I am in here fresh off a vacation(BTW was due to THEIR error). I am tired of the management. I am tired of the people(customers and co-workers). I sit back in my isolated desk and get frustrated every time I think about where I'm at. I hear people say, "Yeah, you have a good job." "I wish my job was like yours." For starters, the position I have is not a job, it is a CAREER, so get it str8 okay??? Secondly, calling people who are delinquent on their car payments is very BORING. What makes it SOOOOOOO..bad is that you are basically calling the same people every month. It gets SOOOOOOO....(not keepin up with the amount of zeros) bad is that I know the customer name by heart, their number, I know family members, I know everything. All of their business, all their lame ass excuses. I know that you are to stick with your current position til something else falls through, but I don't know if I can make it to that. I have plans for 2005 and I still plan to pursue them, but....I just don't know anymore. I think it comes down to this: The position is a good position, but I am tired of collections. I was doing collections while I was attending DeVry, but it was cool back then. Now the second time around the collections' table, I can't stand it. When I am tired of a position, I become less motivated, less enthusiastic about it and do not apply 100% in it. I want to be able to enjoy my position. To get up in the morning and feel good about my career. I am tired of sitting here now. I have gotten more irritable up here and I may do something that I have no business doing, and I sincerely DON'T want that to happen. I know what I want to do and I just have to put more time into making it happen, even if it means sacrifice and more commitment.

**Pops Digable Planets in CD player**
**Where I'm From?**


Motivation...

How I can turn from frustration to motivation just like that? Easy! Because..... "It Is What It Is", that's why. Through all the frustration with my career, I have been motivated. I have been motivated by a few positive things.

For example, my workout plan. It's been coming along very well. As you all know, my first workout in 2005 was very rough. I was so sore afterwards that I couldn't even put my coat on myself. Now that's sad. People say, "Oh, you'll only last a week!" or "T------ will try to kill you!" Well......BITCHES...... (sorry Mom for da language if you're reading) It has been THREE weeks and I'm still going strong. So all you who doubt me,**puts down the middle finger** can KISS MY ASS!!! Yeah I said it, if you have a problem with it, you know where to find me. The working out thang has also motivated me to eat better. Now I know from my previous post that you have read about the steps that involved food such as "Skip seconds" and "Skip buffets." If I want to have a much healthier diet, I need to calm those things. I've done well so far. I have controlled my intake of red meat. I have included more vegetable and fruits in my diet. I make smoothies everyday. (I am getting good at those!) Suprisingly, I have controlled my intake of alcohol.....Yes you heard it right....You don't need to read this sentence over in shock. I have been called an alcoholic when I know that I'm not. I did some research. If I choose to drink beer(Heineken,Corona,Guinness, SHIT....you know what beer is!!!!, I am to NOT exceed 24oz in a day. Heineken sells a 22oz bottle, which my friend calls "Da Deuce-Deuce!" I would be 2 ounces on point, but I don't really have anything in a week with the exception of Thursdays. I am doing good and I am very excited to know that I will see changes if I stick to my plan.


"So just watch me step alone, into the sunset,
Left foot, right foot 1-2 mic check,
Brewin funk inside my soul kitchen,
So pull up a chair here's a bit have a listen,
Of hard head intervene, damn I know you're fluent,
Yeah, cause Doodle ain't havin it and Butterfly knew it."
"Where you from?"

-Doodlebug, Digable Planets-


-Da Original 1-